Step one

     Well, I took step one to my journey to happiness.  I gave my notice.  In my heart, I just don't feel that hospital nursing is for me.  I'm not really sure what is.  I like helping people, so that's why I thought that nursing might fit, but I don't like having to rush from patient to patient.  I want to be able to get to know my patient a little other than knowing them as their room number and what time I have to get back in there to give more medication all the while trying to take care of five other things at the same time.  Someone told me I should try home health since you do get to know the patient, I might give that a try, but I want to get back into school.  I know, it seems like I am always in school or changing something up.
     I think that I am going to go back to school for education, I'm not sure though if I want to be a pre-k or kindergarten teacher or just an aide.  If I do make it back to school, I don't know how long I might actually do whatever it is I decide to major in.  I seem to have a restless soul.  Whether it is changing my hair color or style, to changing a room around or anything else I change constantly, it never seems enough.
     I have to be honest, I am terrified that I made the wrong decision in quitting before I have it set in stone what I am going to do next.  And that I messed up our chances to get a home loan.  But I have to put my trust in God that I will land on my feet, and that he will come through for me once again.  If this miscarriage taught me one thing, it is there is a God and he has a plan for each and everyone of us.  The steps that lead up to me finding out that the baby died are too coincidental.  I had to change my appointment to the 6th because of work reasons and if I would have went on the 3rd like I was supposed to the baby would have had a heartbeat, Ethan wanted to go to meet his brother/sister, and Ethan couldn't go because I missed school for being sick, so he didn't have to see me fall apart.  I have to say the situation sucks, but I am thankful for the way it played out.  Sorry, I seemed to have gotten off topic, but I just had the need to share that with you.  Now that we will be working with one income come the end of February (unless I find something else) I have to get serious about not spending money, which if you know me you know how hard this will be for me.  I am still looking for good sites, and ideas for doing just that.  Once I get a list together I will share it with you.